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Originally Posted by Can't Remember
i should have been clearer. I thought my appt was at 3:30 but it was really at 3 and I didn't realize it until I finally found my appt card at 4. so i was frustrated because I couldn't remember the right time and also because my t is the only person I have to talk to and now I have to wait another week and a half. yes, I do have some pto but I work in accounting and there are so many deadlines, etc that I feel guilty for asking for time. I know I shouldn't but its another instance of it would be okay for anyone but me. why don't I think I'm worth it?
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as for not feeling worth it, i'd definitely bring this up in your next session and you can use your feeling guiilty about taking time off for that last appt. as an example.
depression often times makes us distracted about appt. times,etc. i get that way too sometimes.
your pto is for exactly what you were doing, taking per. time off....you must be a conscientious worker to be concerned about deadlines but if you don't use therapy time you will end up perhaps not being able to be a good worker. be kind to yourself and know you are of value to yourself and others. if you had another medical condition of a serious sort you wouldn't feel guilty then,would you? just because we can't "see' our illness doesn't make it any less important. 
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