Leslie and her Pixes,
thank you for the hugs trying to ground trying to focus..feel so just sick and not even tired just lost in a world that i should know but ??? I know all of you are at this point one time or another or maybe even now?...T is gone for right now so I can't talk to her and the husband is trying but then the switching back and forth for protection purposes NOT to let anyone know the freaking stupid ugly secrets is just uggg too much for anyone to deal with even though he's trying he's trying... Thank you!!!

abbi of the jewels,
awwee thank you for taking the time to write..you did give me allot to think about and you like leslie validated my feelings of what's going on..it's hard to accept at this moment right now...too understand..to comprehend..everytime i feel things rising up even though "I" may feel safe someone else may not the panic is so scary..even just now see typing it someone even though it's the bodies reaction is just panicking...This is our life huh? it's going to be hell until this crap comes out...but those people made us all of em tole us never tell never tell..so yeah it's hard..so much guilt feeling like we are the bad people..we haven't even begun to tell and look at how much pain is here...sigh..okay but i will stop getting tummy upset..thank you so much though thank you...hugz to you alll back Sannah you too biggest hugz
MC