Well, been reading a lot of posts and many times I've read the importance of forgiving and moving on.

As a child I was severly neglected (according to my T. )and emotionally abused. Still having a hard time realizing that it was abuse towards me though-- batteling the thought that I must have done something to have a mother treat her child the way she did. I've tried so hard at putting all that way behind me, as I know I'm raising two teen boys that have respect and much love in their hearts - so I made a conscious effort not to continue the cycle.

The thing is... my mom is still similar towards me. As she is aging I'm the only offspring that lives near-- I'm the youngest-- everyone else has moved hundereds of miles away , so I feel obligated to take care of her needs. It's just so damn hard to deal with the relationship- I find I don't have forgiveness, as she is still hurting me. The way she is hurting is a bit different than when I was a child of course- but still the feelings are so raw. I can't move on and forgive her!!! This makes me feel like I must have a " cold heart ". Then my internal dialogue starts in-- telling me what an awful person I am- how I don't deserve anything good- it asks what is wrong with me that I can't forgive her.
Is it too much to ask, if someone is still being hurt??-- or perhaps I have a cold heart??

To anyone that reads this.... Thanks

Mandy