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hugs you got! you can vent all day, we will listen to you.

hey, it's amazing that you can put a name to all the things you are going through; believe me, being able to name them is powerful, so much better than the black clouds of help-no-brakes that I had. You are in T, which is great; lots of people never allow themselves to ask for any help and just live in pain. and your drive to get well is powerful too and is a good sign. and you are strong; you were even able to go to yr T and tell all of this. I think all that is pretty ok!