hi again thanks so much for your thoughts but i'm not in therapy "yet" i'm thinking about it at least in the past whenever my GP would metion a psych i'd be like NOOOOO WAYYYY, too scared so that reaction to it is what leads my GP to think that i prob would benefit from 1 . i did see a psych once only because my GP wanted another opinion on her suspicions of bi-polar,it was horrible,she was lovely & agreed with GP on bi-polar but picked up straight away that i was abused as a child because when she asked about my childhood i had no memories & i dissacociated when trying to remember ,very scarey stuff i wanted to run out of there sooo bad.