we've been together for 12yrs married for 41/2yrs & have 2 boys together,i truly love him & he me, but i feel hes being selfish about sex? my excuse for not wanting it is that i suffer from bi-polar & just dont want it he thinks im selfish cause that makes him happy but when i give in its horrible i pretend its ok but its not. i think i was abused as a child but i dont remember much about it or anything else? how can this effect me if i dont remember?