I had therapy today and just as I suspected we talked about my spiral downward.

Dr. M thinks it is a combo of my dad's heart attack last week and my fear of my doctor's appointment tomorrow in Little Rock. I go see my surgeon in Little Rock tomorrow and I have gained a couple of pounds back and fear he won't do my surgeries now. On one hand I don't think he will cancel them over just a couple of pounds but then again he just might. I am just preparing myself for the worst. I always stress out when I have to go for checkups with this doc and then when I get down there I find out I was stressing for nothing. I keep forgetting Dr. Baker is just a big teddy bear.

Jan