I am so tired.... physically and mentally exhausted. Can't move, can't eat, can't sleep...
and I think the pain has been in my heart for so long now it's just grinding itself deeper, clinging on to my bones, determined to make me hurt and miserable forever.
The people I'm meant to get love from just give me grief... there's no-one else... I just feel like I'm walking down a dark, narrow tunnel (being claustrophobic too)...


I can't get my thoughts out, they're just sat there, in me, torturing me...
I just wanna scream, I haven't the energy. I can't describe the pain and loneliness.

I wish I was never born

I am so sorry for spouting nonsense again.... I'm sorry for being here...