(((((((((((( hangingon ))))))))))))

the fact that you & T are working together is something that can give you hope...T knows you, or is coming to know you, very intimately, and you will notice doesn;t run from you screaming; on the contrary, you find compassion and patience. listen to what T tells you, even if it seems to lie on you like water drops on an impermeable surface; in time, what you hear can sink in and your pain will be better.
in the meantime you have friends here! hugs to you