((((hangingon)))) would you feel safe enough to print your post out of how you truly feel and give it to your T next time? it would help your T help you ,and that's what therapy is all about.
i had psychodrama in the "walnut factory",(psych ward), as i called it. i thought it was a crock at first. then it was my turn. it gave me an amazing insight of the pain i felt for the little girl inside of me. my pdoc had me close my eyes. then he said "can you see the little girl?" (me as a child) i said "yes". he asked me if i "could hold her little hand". i said "yes". he asked me what i was feeling and wanted to say to her. i said "i feel like i want to protect her. she needs me and needs to feel that she is loved." then i started bawling. my little girl in me needed to feel that she was loved. as an adult i was able to take her litle hand and assure her of that. it was so healing.
hope you'll consider this and follow up with your T. i really think you can make a breakthrough in your therapy. keep us posted, k?
i hadno idea that that little girl was in there!!!