Lightbulb momment for us...
I hope you don't get mad at us for posting on this thread but Leslie and Pixies this was HUGE for us...This used to happen to us..One of our abusers used to put us in a choke hold daily...I would freak out and cry and turn red (obviously couldn't breathe) he was in the military so he knew how to hold really,really tight too! My face turn red and the more I would cry I was so scared he would laugh and laugh and and my face would turn red (I think) and then things would go fuzzy but I alway's heard him talking then all of a sudden no more tears just laughter me way way in the back but another voice in my body laughing not scared not scared standing there..I never realized that that alter was created to take care of me then to withstand that pain until now...He would put my head between his legs and choke me too and same thing also beat me same way and I would go away and the other alter would come out laughing at him and even though he was beating us so hard that alter laughing at him i think scared him cuz she couldn't feel the pain...SORRY I just had to kinda thank you for opening up here cuz I am going to write this in my journal it was a break through moment for me...My tummy hurts kinda now it alway's does when I have to really belive that this is (REAL) in me does that happen for you all? Hugz Leslie and Pixies biggest safest hugz I do understand

MC