Hi tinyflyer02....and welcome back...
We all have this extra sense..something in our gut that sends a message to us that something just ain't right. Many of us don't listen for one reason or another. There were many times in my life when my gut shouted at me...and I had deaf ears...I wish I had listened...
Your not feeling right about this,,and that is OK. If your boyfriend can't wait patiently and compassionately for you to be comfortable with this important decision,,,then your gut is right on.
And don't feel any shame for your uncomfortability. This is your body,,your heart and who you give it to and when are your decisions and I'm proud of you for giving it the thought and consideration you are. If your parents could here my whisper.."You have helped raise a wonderfull Lady"...they would smile with well deserved Pride..
Keep doing what your doing..its working.
Lenny