Hi!

Well here's my situation. I really love my boyfriend, but he wants to have sex with me. I know he's getting frustrated with me because we get to almost doing it then I get real nervous. It seems to bother when he tries to do anything to me, but I don't mind doing anything for him. It really makes me feel bad and we fight about it. We've only been dating for 4 months, but it feels like we've known each other a long time. He thinks I'm not attracted to him, but I am. He's a really good guy, but he brings up that many girls do want him. Sometimes he brings up stuff he used to do with his ex. I just don't know what to do. My parents just got out of a bad divorce where my dad was verbally abusive to my mom. I've had a lot of drama in my life. Also I was very sexually curious at a young age because I would look at dirty magazines and try to play with mom's "things". Do you think something happened to me when I was younger and I just blocked it out? I really want to make love to my boyfriend, but I'm so scared to do it. Also I am scared of pain, which I'm pretty sure is what I am going to feel when we do have it.

What do you guys think?