I was wondering if anyone else has this problem,

I get confronted by people, and even if I'm me (Edgar) I start yelling at them, "GO AWAY! JUST GO AWAY!" and it's like I can't help it. A voice just comes out of my mouth.

I don't know if it's another part, or what, if it is, I don't really know who it is.

I'm getting really stressed out and I feel like I'm losing my mind, eventhough nothing really triggering has happened this week, and I'm not hallucinating. I guess I feel really lonely, and I'm waiting to get into a hospital in Maryland.

I'm terrified to fly on a plane, (political reasons, and family history of crashes, it's seriously a curse) and even if insurance will cover it, I don't know how I'll get there, because I don't have money.

I really really want to go there and so does my brother, (hes an alt too)

When I feel like something bad is about to happen, to prevent me from going where I want in the near future, I start to panic and sabatoge things. I almost feel like doing something drastic for no reason.

I can't clean, I can't eat, I can't sleep. I just want to be okay. And no one inside is good at doing any of those things, sadly, I'm the one who does that stuff, and if I can't, then what do I do?

Any advice would be greatly appriciated.

-Edgar