I do that too. I sit there very calmly and like I don't have a care in the world as I tell them things. I'm not attached to it in a way and in another way I'm trying to make my therapist more comfortable. isn't that crazy? I've spent most of my life trying to be a class clown so other people are happy and I know no one wants to be around someone who is sad all the time so I present this happy face. I have noticed though that I am becoming more and more detached and a lot more quickly. What I did or said this morning feels like it was a year ago. If its not in the present, I have no feeling about it. Its kinda scary. Like my brain is going on a slow lock-down. Like maybe I've met the limits of what I can take so I'm just not going to feel anymore, like a robot.