Guys. I am happy to report I have TWO DAYS completely sober!

Things are getting easier physically. The withdrawls are getting easier to deal with.

Ugly little nagging thought has reared its head, because its the weekend, and who doesn't party on the weekend? Right? WRONG. Not falliing for it this time! Sorry but this two days has been hell and I am NOT going to go through that again if i dont have to.

So TWO DAYS. That seems enormous to me because its been a LONG two days, probably small to others but its huge to me.

The other thing is that I need to get my tolerance down, and in order to do that I need a good couple of weeks without codeine in my system. IF i take it again to soon, my tolerance wont recover and I wont receive good pain control when I really DO need the meds.

Talked to doc and the way we are doing it is he will give me 20 pills for a two week period. Thats a pill a day if needed, and an extra pill on the days that its bad. I think this will work, because if i go whole hog on day one I have nothing left and could risk not being able to take care of jeremy on the days that I am in pain. And im not willing to ask my mother to take care of him so i can laze in bed.

Feeling pretty darned optimistic.