I appreciate the physical support I get from my partner, but everything else seems so simple, so cut & dried to him.

I am deep in a black depression with chronic anxiety, I also have agoraphobia. His idea is to just "go to a treatment facility".

I feel like screaming when I hear it. We are in the middle of packing up and moving to another state, everything is so untidy I cringe just thinking about it and when I see it I want to set fire to it just to get rid of the mess (of course I won't).

I feel as if an executioner has put a black sack over my head, and I just cannot see where I am going or what I am supposed to do.

I see and feel no future, and going to a treatment facility isn't going to help me. I am just as afraid of being locked in somewhere as I am afraid of going outside...

I just want it to end