Jen,

Thanks for the reply.
You said-- " I often think I am a glutten for punishment but then I think maybe I'm still hoping and praying he will love me".

That's pretty much how I feel too. If I try just one more time-- maybe things will be different. But they never are.

I'm sorry your dad causes you such pain. What is it about a parent's love we always strive to receive?

You are so kind to say such nice things... thank you.

Thanks for the PM offer, might take you up on that-- same goes for me-- you can PM me anytime.

Mandy