BUMP! lol!

not sure this will work.

Hi Junerain ,

Very important thread you have here. Sorta lost in the shuffle of PC. Hummm,

We have some common struggles Junerain . I do believe we can discard the old self . I believe we can transform and dream and allow ourselves to change . I have heard of some poeple making vision quest boards or finding soul mates or collaging what thier dream life would be like.

I felt the inkling lately I should try some of this.

I believe in the power of visualization . Im not sure if you are a dancer if that picture of the ballerina is you . I have been silently musing to myself that Men should try to find the ballerina within ..LOL !!!

I like you am an INFJ Or INFP the one that has the mystic .

When I began my journey I found self hypnoisis tapes and used them when I was 16. I was struggling to find an answer to why I was the way I was. Got down in the basement and couldn't find anything . too dark . But that in itself tells something.

Little did I know I would end up with a licened hypnotheripist . He did put me under . Can't remember what he was telling me . All I can remember was I was seeing myself as a gymnast on the parralell bars then dancing flying other pwerful intertwining images. He must have been feeding me some good statements.

yes visualization in dream work , in drawing , in guided visualization self hypnosis . theres something about it . It informs what we cannot voice or give voice to what has not one yet.

I do encourage you to work with visuals as you write . even if they are just gesture drawings. Maybe take a class , you may already be a skilled artist.

One thing I found absolutely amazing was doing still life assignments . One was to go into the garage an put things together .

I ended up with what was just a colection of tools into a story that was quite unsettling . It has happened more than once . I was pretty excited while doing it . But when It came time to hang It I thought the class would be sacred of me.. My teacher just said I liked to push the envelope..

In class we were drawing figures from real life models. quick timmed gestural drawings. I put three of them sorta on top of each other . It ended up sorta being like the three faces of eve. It showed how women can opress one another the look on the faces was of [hatred and over powering ], [indiferance dissocitive, ] and the other mentally beaten down .[sad down trodden.]

but while I was drawing I was aware of none of that . Only untill I was done did I see it.

Could have been the parts within me . I'd have to say they are because if we are treated such by others we tend to take on the abusers persona.'s even though they are not ours .

enmeshment ....

Thats the work we need to discard Junrain . I belive we can once we see who owns what . Maybe make a new drawing new gestures of embracing .I like your giving your old elf over to an angel idea . I have found myself drawn to the angel imagery I see here . I'm drawn to it all because its all encompassing.

I like the ideas about the Morning glory. The name of my Buisness is Morning Glory Landscapes. It spoke to me because I was in morning over the death of my father and the loss of my gradschool due to conflict with a couple of women who thought I was to to to ... to guite to with drawn to independant to contimplative . the mouring Glories much to my dismay aslo represent ipicac . Forgot my herbal notes when I drew the card. felt a bit exposed...LOL!

I had the Morning glories creeping up a wall by a door that opened to a sunrise. They were talking to each other whispering pretty stories we longed to hear once more. The sunrise ended up with a pahlic like ray and the mountain range looked like hind ends .. oh me...

see cant hide.. dont know about the drawing .. it speacks truth.

yonder waits .. okay LOL!

just one thing about the Morning glory peeping out of the snow in april.

they take their darned ole time in blooming . Not untill mid summer do they do thier stuff so ..

Roses in April snow . Pansies , daffodils tulips hyacynths.. also ..
snow drops are starting soon.

Patricia