Welcome Helene

You are defiantly not alone. The low after the high always seems to be worse for me.

As for how I get through the depression... talking to people who are ready to listen. Looking for at least one thing each day that is good, even if I have to convince my self, and don't truly believe it at the moment.

The meds that have so far worked the best for me is a combination of Wellburin XL 450 mg, and 200 mg Seroquel. It is not perfect, and the last week I have been in a low that I am still trying to get through. Another thing that has helped this week in particular has been some good advice from people right here. Speaking up was the best thing I did this week.

List the reasons why you feel guilt, helpless and on and on. Be objective and specific, and you will find that most are based in false thinking. (it may be hard to see it, but it is true)

As far as your seeing a therapist, good for you. Be honest with your doc's and don't hold back. They can help you better if you are up front. I know that it is difficult, but you will feel better. Keep on your meds, and keep your appointments. I like many others thought that I was better when my meds started working, only to make things worse. I can relate to the tears, as I have been in that place this week.

One other thing that has helped with the depression was getting and using a light box. They can be expensive, but It helps me. I also find that music helps me. For me listening to Phish shows from what was a few memorable tours that I went on and was a part of, reminds me that I have felt good.

I hope this helps