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Old Jan 17, 2009, 03:43 AM
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I don't know what's wrong with me. I was trying to do homework for my art class, it was a very simple assignment, just do two sketches of anything I want. I started drawing and started out feeling okay and as I went I just started feeling horrible. My drawing looked so bad and I couldn't make it look good and I kept thinking how I couldn't do it and I was going to be embarrassed in class when we had to hand the homework in and I was so bad at art and so bad at everything and I just started crying and now I can't stop, I'm just sitting at my computer crying and feeling so mad at myself. And now I am even more mad at myself for crying and being stupid and I just wish I had a good friend to talk to.
I don't even know why I am this way. I hate myself. so much. I want to just go away.
I wish that I could draw my feelings. I think that's my problem right now. I just have too many feelings and thoughts and nowhere to put them. I don't have anything to do with them so they just stay locked inside of me causing me trouble.