hi rhia, and welcome to pc !! so glad you found us. you and i have a lot in common with our diagnoses. have you gotten involved with a psychiatrist for meds?
once you move i'd encourage you to do this cause you don't have to feel this way. meds help me so much. also a therapist is helpful. it allows you to vent and also learn tools of how to cope better. many people use this route and never have to be hospitalitized.
moving....well i'm doing that now too. if i wasn't on meds i can tell you right now i would feel totally overwhelmed. what i'm doing to help myself is taking it a day at a time allowing myself to "ignore" the total chaos around me. hard to do but so far it's working. moving for anyone is traumatic no matter how 'healthy' they are! try not to beat up on yourself..be kind to yourself as you would to a friend going thru the same thing. hard to do cause we are so down sometimes on ourselves but do make an effort. a long soak in the tub every evening can be soothing and helps us relax. you can do this even with the packing and later unpacking, etc. at the end of each day.
the depression you are experiencing is why you see "no future". it clouds our perception of what is real. it "tells" us non-truths. since you are in the midst of moving just try to get by and once you move you can focus on getting this "fixed".
talking about it here will release some of the stuffed feelings so post as often as needed!! we care about how you are doing.