Hi Silver,
It is very hard trying to be the good girl all the time you must be under a lot of pressure trying to please your dad all the time.
My heart goes out to you, after all your 20 now and should be doing your own thing and haveing fun not worring about upsetting your father. I hope you get to see a T real soon and go on meds for your depression.
My own father is a very angry man likes to lay down the law, but it was only when I stood up to him that he started to quiten down. I know it is scary even thinking about standing up to him (I did'nt stand up to my father until I was forty lol) but you have the right to be happy.
Molly