I appreciate everyone sharing their stories - it has made me feel a little less alone.

I've told my therapist everything that I've said here. I am maxed out on my meds.

Last night, I started feeling really upset. My husband is seeing a therapist now, too, for his depression. He is very emotionally distant. He cannot deal with my depression anymore...he walks off or shuts down when I need someone. I started having thoughts of how I could hurt myself. I don't want to die - I just feel so trapped in my feelings, house, marriage, and career path.

I cried for a long time, which I usually cannot do.