I can hear them...
all of them..
their voices talking about me...
staring at me..
laughing at me...
im just a joke to them...
they all hate me
they rather see me dead...
DEAD....
i wish i could help...
but im am....
i am just a weak coward....
i guess they will all suffer with me...
i cant dissappear...
as hard as i tried...
i just cant go away...
i just can't....
its impossible....
the only way...
is for you to do it...
free me, free everyone...
from the pain that i cause them....
just because i breathe......

this is something i wrote today in Psychology class as i heard a group of people talking about me and laughing at me, and no one did anyting about it, they just went right along with it...the teacher didtn even do anything about it..i know that im am not popular, but how can everyone just leave me like that, why dont i have any friends, why am i labled a plague....i just dont get it, i never did anything to any of them, i have only tried to get better and i was nice to all of them, i put a smile on for eveyone but its starting to crack, i just dont know how much longert i can handle this, i think i should just leave and never go back to that place....i just dont know what to do...how come everytimd i think i am better i just end up where i started....

why does life hurt so much?