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Your father sounds a lot like my ex husband with not believing and blaming and never being good enough. I picked up a book at the library called Emotional Blackmail - When the people in your life use Fear, Obligation and Guilt to manipulate you. It's by Susan Forward, Ph.D. She also wrote a book called Toxic Parents. Perhaps those would be of help to you. It teaches you how to take back your personal power. I haven't gotten past reading that what I experienced was emotional blackmail, so I can't give you any tips. LOL