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Thankyou for explaining stuff, its not too long at all. And I hope that it did help to get it out (although I guess it could feel scary to reveal all that too).

You are treading on eggshells so much around your dad, the strain must be wearing you down. Is there a student counselling service at uni that you could go to, things would be confidential there and then your dad wouldn't need to know.

Somewhere where you can have space with someone to talk about everything. To look through options with you and ways of coping with your dad (and all the feelings he brings up in you).

I imagine there could be a sense of relief when you are away at uni, even though it has its own pressures, you are away from the 'dad / eggshells' environment.

I'm sorry you're going through all this, thinking of you.....

Poppet