zen  can totally relate to canceling meetings,etc due to the anxiety. i can't make plans too far ahead cause the tension builds up just knowing i've made a committment. i'm not shy at all but still have to be careful to not make appts.too much ahead of time. i'm working on it but it's really strange cause there's no reason for me to be anxious at all.
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