Coco,

I LOVE Valentine's Day. Notice the ticker doesn't say "until it's OVER?" (Like the Christmas one did...)

It's all about the love right now!

Thank you Pachy and Curiousus for your thoughts. Yes, Pachy I realize there is more to it than what I can get from T and I think that is part of why I attended this group thingy yesterday.

I woke up this morning feeling a bit better and understanding more of my space right now. In my knowing, it is clear that when I get upset about certain interactions it is an unintegrated child self state. So, it is my 8 year old self who freaks out over phone calls. EM, the adult self would simply call if she needs to keep herself safe. The problem is that sometimes the adult is simply not around and this child self state is at the helm.

I have this fantasy that I will walk into therapy and say, "Listen, I have something to tell you." And then I will be so adult and will explain these marvelous insights I have had today.

Yeah, right until I walk in tomorrow and I am 8 or 10 or 12.......