I am borderline. I don't worry to much about it though. I agree in the assessment that it feels simular to rapid cycling bi-polar disorder. I go to a bi-polar support group and fit right in. I like knowing that I am borderline because knowing has given me a framework to use in learning how to live a healthy happy life. I do resent the general attitude about borderlines but I wouldn't know about that general attitude if it wasn't for all the books saying we are the pariahs of the mental health system. Even the nice books that are talking directly to us mention that fact that we are seen as pain in the asses. What is up with that?

As for being asked about SI at every session. I am asked as well. It used to irritate the dickens out of me because I was ashamed and afraid of what my therapist would think. Over that last 6 or 8 months I have learned to be more open about it, to let go of the shame. In doing so I realized that the reason he was asking me is because he was concerned AND the amount of harm I am doing to myself is an excellent indicator of where I am mentally. It is also a way for him to spot trouble when I am not able to realize it myself because I have disengaged from my emotions and claim that things are ok when in reality the pot is just about to boil over.
Carrie

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson