Hi Inabox,

You sound a lot like me a couple years ago. I as well never thought I was depressed, I just was a worry wart.

You may not FEEL depressed, but I believe your body is telling you otherwise. Lack of appetite is a big indicator as well as stomach problems. I would have denied a million times that I was depressed.

But I was.

I just never admitted it to myself. That fact that you are irritated when people try to get to know you better was a big thing with me as well. I felt I was a complete phony, that I did a pretty good snowjob on most people I met who thought I was funny and smart. This is mainly why I pulled away after some people wanted to get to know me better. I didn't want them to see who I really was, what a disappointment I was.

So my diagnosis for you? Depression with anxiety as a result of the depression. Or Anxiety with depression as a result. Many times the two go hand in hand and it's impossible to pin point which one caused the other.

I've been seeing a psychotherapist now for almost 2 years and will terminate pretty soon. It has done wonders. If you are willing to invest the time and money, you won't regret it!