Please send me patience. I am at the edge of mine. There are very very very very few times that I start thinking that everyone in the world is so self centered and could care less about anyone outside their circle. I know that its not true but it feels that way today.
I have been trying to find someone to pick up a dryer that I can get for ten dollers and people are all acting like I am asking them to give me a million dollers. So I just finally said never mind and sat down and cried. I am ok I think.
Ok someone did call and say sorry of course we can help. I guess people are not used to me just giving up and crying. So keep your fingers crossed the dryer works and the cord is the right one. SIGH I could stand someting to turn out the way i need it to.
Now I am going to get on my soap box but i sometimes think that the word puts value on things that are stupid. We value athletes and ay them millions...we value cars and material goods and status. We look down on people who are poor and struggling. On chrstmas we have commericals on what to buy for who and what is popular....
so people spend tons of money on material goods for people who may not even remember what they got last year. Instead of buying gifts for a homeless child (on christmas eve I was at the mall and there was a giving tree for homeless kids and about 100 tags still on it and people walked past it with so many bags of stuff they could barely carry it) I was disgusted.
Somtimes I get so digusted with the world and its values. I dont think that it should take a childhood like mine to force people to look outside their self. I dont mean just buying a small gift for a homeless child but doing something because it feels better then anything else. Why doesnt doing something for someone else feel good for many people? I guess I feel a little disapointed in the world but it wont last. I will see the good again soon. Im just a little tired and sad and hurt that people can be so selfish.