Lately I have been feeling so alone. I know I'm not. I have a husband and son that I'm around pretty much 24/7. But they're all I have. I don't have any friends or close relatives. I mean I literally have not one friend. I don't leave the house unless my husband is driving me and when he's not around I have alot of anxiety. I don't know what to do. I have been like this for 6 years. Thats since my mom died. I'm so tired of feeling this way. I don't have a psych or therapist. No one to talk to at all. Things really get on my nerves. I snap at my son. Then I cry because I feel bad about it. I don't want him thinking that I don't like him. I want a more social life but I have panic attacks at the grocery store. Or when someone comes to my house. I feel I can only function alone like this. I don't want to be this way anymore. I know i'm letting my husband and son down because I am like this. I want a job so i can have some extra money to take my kids out and have fun but the thought of being away from my family for a long period of time scares me. I just don't know what to make of this. I hope I posted on the right topic. 
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Dx: PTSD, Panic Disorder, Obsessive Personality Disorder.
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