So... this is gonna be kinda long. My ex and I were together for about 2.5 years and about 6 months after we started dating I met this kid David. Well about 6 months after I met David his friends tell me that he has a crush on me. And after a couple months the story comes out that he's "obsessed" with me. I kind of liked him too but was in this other relationship and wasn't going to pursue anything, thinking it was just a little crush.
Then my ex and I broke up and it turns our David still had feelings for me but by this point I've moved 6 hours away from where he goes to school. So when I was in Dayton for about a week over the summer, he was there too being on summer break and we went out a few times. Then we both went back to school. For the first week or so we talked everyday, sometimes for hours straight. And we decided that it was too hard to try a long distance relationship at this point and we would date other people.
Well I guess he was just saying that bc when I did go and date other people he was crushed. I know now that I was only dating this other guy to try and get over David, which didn't work. Because now we have broken up and I'm left thinking of David again.
So I told him that I was scared that this last time when I basically rejected him that I had killed off all his feelings for me and that I had this great guy in front of me for years and never realized it until now that he is who I want. And his response to me was that he "isn't in that place" with me right now. So I said thanks for being honest and that was that.
Then last night I apologized to him for putting that on him. I said it wasn't fair of me to put my emotions on him considering the situation we're in right now. This time his response to me is that he's in love with me but doesn't see us together anytime soon.
I haven't talked to him today. I have texted him and I don't know if he's ignoring me because of what happened last night or what?
I'm just so confused and I don't know what to do. Logic tells me that we will never be in a place where we can be together. He is going to law school and I'm (hopefully) going to Dartmouth for my M.S. so here in a year when we graduate we'll most likely go different places again.
I have put my education on hold for a guy before and refuse to do it again but I don't want to ruin this and end up regretting it. And I don't want to make him do something like move halfway across the country for me and then me screw it up.
I don't know if I should just try to move on and get over it or if I should hold on and hope that someday we'll be able to be together. He said that I have always been the girl for him and even if he can't have me I will always be his best friend and I feel the same way about him. But I don't know if I should hold on or just let it go and try to find someone else? Especially when I know that we work so well together.
We never fight, he's always been there for me no matter how I'm acting, where I am etc... He has shown me nothing but unconditional friendship and love for 3 years. Even when I rejected him and started dating other people he was still there for me. I feel like that's something really hard to find and I don't want to give it up but I don't want to hold out and never be able to have it.
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