Does anyone else have trouble feeling happy for people?
I feel really bad even saying this but I notice it happens to me sometimes.
I find that I have trouble being around my boyfriend lately because he is so accomplished. He is very good at everything he tries and has so many accomplishments. We met because we were both in a play together back in May. since then he has been in 5 plays. I have been in zero (I haven't gotten in to any, he has gotten good parts in everything he's tried out for) lately he has been in a play that the theatre took to a thespian competition, he has the lead role and all he does is talk about it. The competition was today and they won and now get to take the play to compete at a higher level competition in March. He is so excited about this and I really want to be happy for him, but I'm not. I am proud of him and I am glad he won because it means a lot to him but I just feel really sad too. I guess I'm jealous, (I didn't even audition for this particular play though) but it's more than that I think. I wish I had something I could do that I was good at enjoyed and could throw myself in to. I wish I was talented and had something to show for my life. I wish I could do things like he can. Every time he tells me about something new he's done it gets harder and harder for me to feel happy for him. and it's the same with other people too. Another girl I know went to the competition and won best actress in a play and when I found out I just wanted to cry. Am I a horrible person? I feel like such a bad person that I can't just feel glad for my friends. I am not a good friend

My boyfriend wants to come over tomorrow and I seriously am just not in the mood.