TB, do you know what about being away from your family is so scary for you? why does that make you feel frightened? do you connect the fear to when your mom died? it sounds like there may be a connection there.
i'm sorry you are feeling this way right now and very glad you posted to us.
do you have a therapist or take any meds for your anxiety? i suffer from anxiety and i know my med works cause i have very few outright episodes since going on the med. my therapy helps me untangle why i feel a certain way. if i didn't have that support system it would be very diffcult for me to figure stuff out on my own.
i'm glad you are reaching out and talking about these feelings. it helps reduce the fears. be gentle with yourself...and stay in touch with us here at pc, k?