DBS, it WILL get better. You need to hang in there and distract yourself.

I cannot even imagine going through that, so I can't say that I even remotely know how you feel, and I know this must be tough.

Even you said that you wasted 5 years on the guy. I really think that your parents are trying to protect you from any more hurt.

Its going to be more difficult because you work with this guy....

I honestly have to say that no person or situation is worth throwing yourself in front of a train for. No one.