Thanks, ((((((((((((Poppet))))))))))))). I hope you don't think I said too much about it. It was a relief writing it all out but now I get nervous about what people are going to say, lol.

I do go to the counselling service, actually. I've been going since November. However because I started going there because of the increasing depression, that's mainly what we talk about. We have talked about my dad a couple of times but I have never been able to express just how he makes me feel. When I see my new t (whenever that will be), it's going to be an issue I raise as well as the depression. I think the best way would be to show them this post - I don't know how to tell somebody how I feel about it face-to-face.

And yep, it's good to be away from home. However, it's not totally away from home - there is always the vague anxiety about it, because he still has influence over me here too. I agree with the 'walking on eggshells' bit - it's definitely good to not have that every day.