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Hi! I am a 35 yr old female with a supportive, loving husband of almost 10 years and a wonderful 5 year old dtr. I was diagnosed with ADHD/ADD (by a psychiatrist) about 8 yrs ago and was very relieved by the diagnosis and results I received from medication. I also have a 15 yr diagnosis of depression. I always struggled in school, but was able to graduate from college without any kind of diagnosis. However, the diagnosis gave me answers for why I never felt "normal" and fit in with my academic or work peers. I've been on and off stimulant medications for the last 8 yrs. They help me tremendously, but had to go off for 9 months (obvisously) for my pregnancy and I have taken a few med. breaks (days, weeks, 1 or 2 months at a time). I've been taking Vyvanse for almost a year with much success and improvement with my functioning.
OK, here's my current problem: Within the last 10 months, I have become VERY overwhelmed with everyday tasks. At first, I was able to keep the overwhelming feelings under control, but within the last 3-4 months it's gotten much worse. About 11 months ago I was offered a new position at my job where I organize a children's program that is 3 days per week. I accepted the position and I am responsible for "managing" staff in the 4 rooms that our program has along with other duties like communicating with parents, lesson plans, crafts, letters to parents, shopping, etc. I think that my frustration with everything is coming from my job responsibilities. I'm 11 months into the position. The staff, my superiors, husband, etc. all say that I've done great things and made great improvements in my new position and the program in general. Deep down, I know that I've done well in the new position; however, I CONSTANTLY struggle with getting one daily/weekly, task accomplished on time. I know that's the ADD/ADHD kicking in. My husband trys to help me on this task as much as possible, but gets very frustrated with me because I can never really get a grasp on my task. It's as if I'm caught in a cycle. Within the last 3 months, I've become VERY overwhelmed and frustrated and have exhibited frustrated behaviors to my husband that I've never experienced in the past. I am becoming quite depressed and agitated. My husband and I are both worried about my mental status at this time. I'm scared that I'll get worse.
I am thinking that seeing a therapist might help and there have been times when things have gotten really bad to where my husband said "We have to get you help", but we never make it to that final step. At least 4 times a week I feel as if I'm losing my mind, going crazy, etc. I get scared. I think I know the answer, therapy, but I was wondering if anyone has any daily life skills or tools that can help me as I'm considering therapy or waiting on my appointment with a therapist. I already use the timer on my cell phone to keep me on task, but anyother suggestions would be appreciated!
Thanks!
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