Thanks so much for sharing this to all here, I want to also tell you that I admire you for the effort you have given yourself to get things together, I don't know you in the 3d but I want to say, "I'm proud of you"

When I was taking diet pills (phenterimine) I wasn't just using them for weight, I had already lost as much as I needed, but for the focus it gave me, perhaps the med. addressed the ADD that I also was DXed with besides Bipolar-II, well not to make this too long, after over a year of usage, I felt hooked, guess I was too.
My DX of bipolar was linked from the use of amphetamines and a family issue combined. . .yep, I fell apart.
After the nightmare that followed, I follow pdocs. recipe for being well, take my meds and keep appts. in fact I've done so good I only have to see him 6-8 week spans, and I'm down to 150mg per day of my mood stabilizer, I think that is a sign of progress when one follows treatment plan and stays med compliant
I encourage all that come to this forum, to stick with treatment plan, meds (if prescribed) and keep pdoc/therapist appts., no cancelling.
Thanks again for posting such an encouraging post, Tgr

Sincerely,
DE