I was doing really bad awhile ago...then it was kinda like i was in pause...not bad..not good

now it's like over the past week or so things are building up.

Tonight ... it's all bad. i'm here writing this trying not to go do something stupid to myself...b/c i'm so frustrated and angry.

i'm sitting here crying which is only making me more pissed off and angry.

I hate that!

I can't even say wtf is wrong b/c i can't even stand it... i can't say what is triggering me cuz i can't even handle this %#@&#! anymore really.

I'm so sick of dealing with lawyers ... i can't even go on with this crap.

Sorry i'm just making no sense now..and wasting your time.

sorry.