Dear ZH,

Thank you know I am not the only one who battles this.

I to be honestly what term the hypervigilance of PTSD is or what the word means?

Making a reply or post mostly really anxious and almost panic. Like right now, I am already worried that I am not 'saying' the right things or for the most part am understand the many parts of my disorders and Mental Illness.

I have after 12 years time started or was granted Therapy. I do believe as You said it would take time. My T seems to think I may have a DID issue.

I guess working with a T now for about 3 months on a weekly basis, I will have to just continue to learn.

She's saying that now in Therapy for first time in 12 years, in the past never having Talk Therapy, that I have alot ot supressed feelings and emotions. From the times before being in the Psych. System the PTSD never addressed until now have built up with in me and my mind that I have many things never brought up during my years of being a Mental Health Client.

Some of what is flashed into my head from the past has been there all along, Yet I am just now starting to talk about them for the first time in all of the years past.

I am sorry if this made no sence only I am thankful for you understanding.

Chris