thank you pegasus and pachyderm and madisgram.

i found an online counselling thingy in our state today - it's a rape crisis centre, and so i asked them if what dad did was wrong. the lady was very nice about it, and she said that she didnt think he did the right thing. and she gave me some numbers i could call and places i could go to where they have counselling and stuff, so i dont have to tell pdoc if i dont want to, because i dont want him to be angry at me. she said she didnt think pdoc would be angry at me, but she knew the other places wouldn't be, so maybe i could talk to them.

so now i have their number and i might give them a call. thank you all so much for replying and helping me .