I have just had my session with Alec. It was really scary and difficult, but it was helpful I guess.. Just so much going on that's so confusing.. Both in the past and the present.. And now, I'm starting to worry whether I would make a good Mother when I do end up becoming pregnant, whether I'd make a good wife etc.. Because of my past..

I know for a fact that I vow Never Ever to take my past out on my kids, or on Connor. I mean, I admit sometimes I argue with him and I get really angry because I'm so confused and he doesn't always help matters.. But I feel so guilty for that.. What if I'm not a good parent?