I had to talk to my ex the other day. Since it's not something I particularly relish any more, sometimes I find myself kind of zoning out. Like when someone is talking to you and going on and on and on, so you do the occasional "uh huh, oh yeah, really" stuff.

Then when I hang up I realize I can't really pinpoint a lot of the stuff he told me. Stuff that isn't necessarily relavent because it's mostly just chit chat that he really doesn't need to be telling me in the first place (he always complains I know too much about his personal life AFTER he discloses things. )

I find it really disturbing, because then it makes me question if a lot of things in our (his and my) past were heard correctly by me. This is something that's just recently started happening, since my lawyer told me to stop talking to him unless it directly involves our kids, so I realize a lot of it is fully intentional on my part, but I still find it unsettling.

I can't imagine having this happen without being aware of it, losing large chunks of time. Laying in bed last night and thinking about it, made me realize how hard it must be for the people in this forum, and everyone else living with this. I know it's not any comfort, but I just had to say I've gotten a tiny glimpse into what it must be like.

((((((((((((((hugs to all))))))))))))))