hey silver - it is a really unpleasant situation, but you have to do what's good for you in your life as well - you have to go your own way to some extent and this won't always be what your dad wants but it is your life. it's really hard when someone is controlling to that extent. i used to have major issues with my family because i seem to like to do everything they frown upon - when i was a teenager and young 20s this was quite problematic, and caused a lot of resentment. now i do my thing and they've come around to the idea that what i enjoy may be different but it's me and if it is good for me that's what's best. i think it's hard for parents to let go of their babies, especially if you've lost your mum - but i'm sure your dad would ultimately rather you were happy in your life doing what you enjoy (although it may not seem that way...)

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I do go to the counselling service, actually. I've been going since November. However because I started going there because of the increasing depression, that's mainly what we talk about. We have talked about my dad a couple of times but I have never been able to express just how he makes me feel.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> interested m - have you thought of printing out your post and taking it to the counsellor? when i was seeing a t, it was often easier for me to write everything for him to read than to say it. also it's a good way of getting your ideas across without interruption or sidetracking

good luck