I also was very afraid to enter into relationships of any kind after being abused(every flavor-I went through it)&I still am because it always pops up as an issue&until last year I didn't know why. I'd blocked my memories of my abuse so much that I didn't remember any of it until about 5 years ago. At first I could deal with it fairly well, then last year the flood gates opened&I've had massive problems w/my bf. I did the same as Michah except I did it hoping for love in return for sex-I never got any.
Take your time&realize that there is the possibility that there are meant to be more than a "the One" in your life. Many of us take what we can get. It doesn't work, but it's what I do. I need love&it seems the only way I can get it is with sex. I hate sex. It's not fun for me-I have no libido(Do you have that problem?)&haven't had an orgasm in years. I'm now seeing that it's a combo of my past&my meds. My t&I are working on this, but it's SO hard to talk about what I remember from the past.
Be glad you haven't done anything you might later regret. When it comes to sex&love-do it for the right reasons, not because you feel you should because of your age&make it happen with someone that can accept you TOTALLY. If they can't do that you'll be unhappy down the road. Hope this helps