hey sweetie. just wondering if you got in touch with T? i hope you are able to get an appt with her. maybe if she has left her office already, you could send an sms to her phone? that is what my pdoc asks me to do - it means i'm not disturbing him (if he is with another patient, or is busy or something) but it means he will get back to me.

i think you really should go in for another appt. yes, you will remain safe, but the thoughts themselves are scary, and you deserve every bit of help you can get to help them stop.