Cap,
Thanks for the response. My surgery was in early Oct. I had high bp before and was on meds. The depression hit the second week after the surgery and didn't come on slowly it was all at once like a baseball bat to the head. I kept thinking it would go away if it was from the anesthesia or meds but it didn't. I saw the surgeon at 5 weeks and he said it lasted too long to be related (not surprised) and to see a pdoc which I did and am now on wellbutrin. I changed my bp meds about 4 weeks after surgery and didn't know I had high bp again till I was in physical therapy. I felt a bit off one day and so the physical therapist checked and said it was very high. I saw my regular dr and changed everything but I still have high diastolic readings at times. I'm on 300mgs of wellbutrin and after almost 2 months am not responding well. Suicidal thoughts are still there, they're just not urgent like I had before Thanksgiving and started the meds. It's all very frustrating. Just to put the cherry on the cake of my day I'm being tested for a stroke. I think it's just because my surgery was on my spine and effected the central nervous system but it doesn't hurt to rule everything out. I have important business decisions to make and have no ability to focus on anything. I see my pdoc tomorrow and will ask for a change either in dosage or adding something or just a change to another drug. ECT was ruled out the last time we met since I already have memory loss.
Thanks for addressing my response. I've been looking for answers and seem to run into lots of things that address depression but not post op or the post op response is that you're unhappy with the results, recovery or just faced your own mortality. None of those things apply. I really appreciate your help.