Oh gosh, I completely understand. NOBODY feels what it feels like unless they've actually experienced it! They might understand but when you can only breath a tiny bit, you feel your chest build pressure and you don't know if you can make it to the hospital in time and you might die on the way, I think there is reason to feel the way you do! I'm going to say it is probably THE most traumatic thing I've had to go through. It's like being choked. If somebody is being choked by somebody its considered life threatening to your psyche (I can't spell!). They say seek therapy, deal with the fact you faced death. But if you have asthma, nobody ever says anything like "maybe you should talk about it, or get therapy". I have been through a ton of crap that they consider traumatic and I won't talk about but the one thing I actually believe was really traumatic was my asthma attacks! I started taking pills at two, shots at three and spent four out of seven days at the hospital during most weeks from age two to six. Of course, we had a nebulizer but between the shots, pills, and treatments, they couldn't get it under control. I almost got taken away from my parents because they thought they were doing something to cause me to turn blue. I was high as a kite half the time I was on the medicine. My family will come out and say they wanted nothing to do with me when I was on asthma medicine because I was too hyper. What a thing to say. But believe me, I understand, the only thing I can say to reassure you is try to stay out of the cold, wrap a something around your mouth, if your a emotional asthma patients try to remain calm, if you get it with excerise (well, I don't know what to say about that. No matter what I did in basketball or softball pratice, I always had to suffer and it seems society considers asmtha inhaler breaks like cop outs.) But I didn't let it stop me then or now, It really does decrease your quality of life. Mostly it scares the crap out of me. I think maybe I will ask my therpaist about what I should think when I think I'm going to die you know like people have panic attacks, maybe therpaists know something we don't about having events like this. Do you see a therapist? Maybe you could do the same. And then we could exchange post? I know it seems I'm just talking about myself but I'm trying to explain how I know how you feel. Just know, you are not alone. And I will do a prayer for you.